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Art Journal: May 2026

01/05/26

‘Reflections’ - new sculpture outside Belfast Central Station from artist Kevin Killen and Golden Thread Gallery

There is one thing that I have been lacking in - a new year’s resolution that has slipped way down the pecking order - carving out time to draw. The sketchbook needs dusted off - badly.

03/05/26

So bloody close to the finishing line (whatever that is) with 'Meet at the Dolmen’. Essentially, its refining the robed figures and incorporating some structure into the treeline.

05/05/26

Venice. Surreal. It’s a very dimly lit city at night - giving it a strange presence. Familiar like a dream and stunningly beautiful. Except for the rat - size of a small dog (slight exaggeration) which jumped down from a low wall while I was locking a gate. Horrible.

06/05/26

Right, day one officially kicked off with a walk in the increasingly heavy rain to Piazza San Marco, down along the water to the Giardini. Stood in the slowest moving line for the guts of an hour, finally making it in. The hunt for a tote bag had begun.

German and British pavilions - great. 11am - all of a sudden, chaos erupted: Pussy Riot staging a protest outside the Russian pavilion. Dutch pavilion - locked in. Spanish pavilion, very good. Next to the central pavilion to see ‘In Minor Keys’. Crowds were insane - a real circus to the point I couldn’t see any work. Too many people clambering and bumping into each other. Should have went earlier. In saying that, Tammy Nguyen’s paintings were stunning.

A fly through the sculptures of the Nordic space to the Japanese pavilion. Loads of babies!

Leaving the Giardini, bumped into a tall, imposing figure all dressed in black… clocked eyes… immediately recognising him as an artist that has inspired my own practice… but could I pluck his name from the ether!? “Jesus Christ!” I exclaim to my simultaneous feelings of “I know him” and “what is his name!?” Moving on , it annoyed me all through lunch. About halfway through food, who walked into the restaurant but the man in black…. long story short - it was [redacted]! Knees went weak and shook his hand for far too long! Star struck.

Next up was visits to the Holy See, Icelandic and Scottish spaces before swinging past San Marino to check Mark Francis’ work.

07/05/26

Arsenale day. Started practically at the beginning of the queue, found this viewing of ‘In Minor Keys’ a way more enjoyable experience - more room to view work. Maybe the weather helped. Central space had so many jaw dropping moments - incredible works - Alfredo Jaar, Nick Cave to name just a couple. A quick regroup before the national spaces.

Lovely opening for Ireland, Chile was unnerving but great. Bit of a detouring boat ride for Eva gathering. Palazzo Grassi - Michael Armitage. Show was just sublime. Seeing this work I’ve loved in the flesh was just a dream come true. A little chat with a critic about Northern Irish snooker. Finishing the night off with a party - meeting old friends and new!

08/05/26

Slept in! That’s what I get for trying to sit and write in bed at 6am. A double Derry adventure from the heart of Venice all the way back to Dublin. Made it home in time to see the kids before bed.

One last look.

11/05/26

Missed the opening of Anna Vidamour’s exhibition in Atypical so happy to spend time with it today. I’m the worst patient.

13/05/26

Still not fully recharged. This coming weekend:

  • Breathe

  • Take Stock

  • Set out Plans

15/05/26

Evening studio session. ‘Meet at the Dolmen’ completed. Pretty happy with this one.

Architecture has it’s limits. Nature always wins.

19/05/26

Tim Patrick at Arcade. Beautiful works - fluid immediacy and could just sit and look all day.

21/05/26

Golden Thread visit after picking up charcoal at lunch. Frédéric Huska’s ‘Traces of a Traumatic Future’ - beautiful intimate works.

Sharon Kelly’s ‘Disposal of Fullness’. Stunning work as always. Stitches with hair.

24/05/26

Canvas stretching, priming - seeing where to go with this 3-person piece.

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Well, I didn’t get as far as I thought I would have. Now, that’s not to say I’ve been lazy today. Far from it. Two canvases stretched and triple primed. Thought I would have got to draw up the commission, checking which size of canvas will fit the image best. Not to be. I did get working on ‘Lessons in Silence’ - more backwards but still work nevertheless. At the very last moment before finishing and, clearly fed up with the lack of progress, I began blocking out the figure with the hat. First in charcoal and then with a dark grey/blue. Could this be the way to go? The colour might be too ‘on the nose’. What about that sickly pink that’s echoing on the cell walls to the left of the canvas?

26/05/26

How to get drawing back on the table.

31/05/26

… posthumously …

The figure in the hat has now moved to a pink silhouette and elements of the blurred female portrait have been muted in - lightening the darker portions (hair, mouth, shadows, eyes). A slightly more ghostly effect. Sketching up smaller canvases.

Where to next? Outer frame, more natural - greys, browns but try to keep quality of marks that are already there.

RDH: DECEMBER 2024

01/12/24

It’s been a long weekend - no studio but that is understandable considering the circumstances. Adjust / Adapt.

SURPRISE SURPRISE!!

03/12/24

… application? Glutton for punishment?

04/12/24

Focus! F and A. That is all that matters! The rest is bullshit.

08/12/24

Studio! Part 1. ‘M.C.’ facial tones - hair detail. (Purples / Greens?)

Timely progress on commission. Baby steps - not getting too carried away.

Started well on ‘moss piece’. Think the texture will work well - albeit awkward to get detail and control the paint in the really layered elements.

12/12/24

Has the penny finally dropped? Hopeful that it has. Over Christmas, take a look at [redacted]. Why not!

13/12/24

Submitted!

18/12/24

Didn’t get the P.P. opportunity. But as S. says, it was a strong application so I’m proud of it regardless of the outcome.

22/12/24

Keep forgetting that December is usually a write off - when everything else is taken into consideration.

23/12/24

NT5’s gave an idea. snippets / stills from videos taken out of context. There’s something here (not literally I hope). +

25/12/24

26/12/24

It’s been a month and a half! Art has taken a back seat. There’s plenty to be doing, just zero time to do it. This has been largely out of my control lately.

BUT - in saying that…

When it IS in my control, it is making sure that I’m getting the most out of it.

Energy Levels.

27/12/24

Carving time. Need to get on top of these fatigue levels. Certain points of the day, I could easily pass out and I have caught myself sleeping not long after waking up several times.

Get to the bottom of it.

28/12/24

RDH’s are all well and good - keeping stock of where I was to help where I'm going. But what if, in the new year, at the start of the month, a list was made for that coming month. A target list. Things like:

  • works to start / finish (setting deadlines)

  • upcoming application opportunities

Continued in diary.

29/12/24

Last studio day of the year probably.

Top tone - violet yet still dark.

“…embracing darkness as a tool to shed light on something.”

Hank Willis Thomas (on the ‘A Brush with…’ podcast)

So bloody close! The green background is upsetting my happiness but what to change it to?

31/12/24

When researching ideas for creating a new target list, one thing that came up and, I’ve noticed this in real time, is having or setting a deadline to finish something.

having a time limit to have work completed for the Catalyst opportunity has definitely been helpful. Piece is all but complete.

New Ideas project - NI M’s and S’s. (pandering?)

Target list should include a chance to take my own advice - do the research and contact …

Some resolutions: cull the scroll time - cut out certain habits.

So long 2024. You’ve been good to me,

RDH: JANUARY 2020

01/01/20

New Decade. A quiet start to the year but with a feeling of resolve and drive to get things done.

02/01/20

“For the dead travel fast.” - Jonathan Harker’s Journal

Bram Stoker’s Dracula

03/01/20

mem: Sickert’s approach to “Portrait of Hugh Walpole” - one of my favourites - could work. Drastic yes but by simplifying the colours… more painterly…. ambiguous.

04/01/20

The Optimism Gap: Locally good. Nationally bad.

“Unsafe” Commission

Unsafe” Commission

Finished commission. Looked at Sickert and Dumas. Previously it was haggard and stale.

05/01/20

…relieved!

A lot of scanned drawings tonight.

06/01/20

Renewal

07/01/20

Five posts in five weeks.

09/01/20

Confessional

Potential title?

11/01/20

Performed open heart surgery on the 206 today.

Performed open heart surgery on the 206 today.

No Remorse” painting is moving very very slowly.

Detail of “No Remorse” in progress

Detail of “No Remorse” in progress

Overthinking personal issues.

12/01/20

Belfast today.

Incense in sunlight

Incense in sunlight

Issues of “crown” install is mind boggling.

DIONYSUS

13/01/20

Office updating and uploading.

14/01/20

Jade Riley wrote a little piece about my practice. Chuffed!

16/01/20

Ideas with Dad for install concepts.

Hodge-Podge.

17/01/20

Bit of breathing issues but otherwise OK.

19/01/20

Winter sunset

Winter sunset

“Shoah” - 1985 A film by Claude Lanzmann

Eventually got out of a rut (well even a foot out of the door is good) and got sketching.

22/01/20

“To remove unwanted threads of your past (regrets or mistakes) is to undo the tapestry of your life.” - JLP

24/01/20

25/01/20

Last night I had the pleasure of attending the opening of “The Dark” in the CCA. Agnes Meyer-Brandis’ work has made me look at geese in a slightly more positive light.

Started two new canvases and pleased with the progress of “Crown of Dionysus”.

27/01/20

Crown” finished - including wall fixing designed by Dad.

C.E.’s shouldn’t be halted until the weekend.

Finally getting around to reading the collection of art essays by Julian Barnes. I think since I got it the day I visited John in the Royal I’ve been avoiding it.

28/01/20

Late night sketching is better than no sketching at all!

Hatchet sketch

Hatchet sketch

30/01/20

“Time dissolves the story into form, colour, emotion. Modern and ignorant, we re-imagine the story: do we vote for the optimistic yellowing sky, or the grieving greybeard? Or do we end up believing both versions? The eye can flick from one road or one interpretation, to the other: is this what was intended?

Julian Barnes - “Géricault: Catastrophe into Art”

31/01/20

All in all a horrible day.

RDH: DECEMBER 2019

01/12/19

semiotics

02/12/19

It is never wise to stand on a plug.

UNSAFE SYMBOL

In a crisis are we all destined to retract to a small amount of predetermined protocols?

It is what we do in these scenarios that characterise who we can become - but that shouldn’t be confused with a concluded definition.

03/12/19

“Gaugin - A Dangerous Life” on BBC IPlayer

“The work of a man explains that man”

- Paul Gaugin

04/12/19

Sketchbook work this evening.

Sketchbook work this evening.

07/12/19

Really didn’t get as much done as I should have. Started commission though which is good.

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08/12/19

So I now own a car!

So I now own a car!

15/12/19

A very tough week. Frustration at zero creative output. Filter and breathe.

16/12/19

… so I am grateful so for many things. The positives outweigh the negatives. It is OK to have lull bits. It is still be seen as necessary time to off load while creating space for work down the line.

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Read the Room.

17/12/19

Some more sketchbook working out tonight.

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A very foggy night

A very foggy night

20/12/19

The welcomed return of lists - getting things straightened out for the first time in a long time.

21/12/19

If all else fails, even just sitting in the studio is good. It can induce making…

Detail of commission in Progress

Detail of commission in Progress

Have decided to try and switch off over the holidays. Easier said than done as I’m never more than a few steps away from RD to jot thoughts/ideas down on. Will be good to spend some time away - clear some head-space.

28/12/19

2019 has been an odd year. Rejection, award, rejection, solo show, more rejection…

Making time and adhering to a schedule of sorts has to be up there with priorities in the new year. Keeping this blog going is good. Some folks say, isn’t it odd to type out what you’ve jotted down a few weeks ago but I’ve found that in order to move forward, it’s good to have a refresher of what has just preceded and digesting this helps put aims and dangers into perspective.

29/12/19

Less Flaky Would Be Good.

31/12/19

New Year’s Eve Poker Night and Rogue isn’t having a good run of cards at all.

New Year’s Eve Poker Night and Rogue isn’t having a good run of cards at all.

2019 in Photos

JANUARY

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MARCH

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MAY

JUNE

JULY

AUGUST

SEPTEMBER

OCTOBER

NOVEMBER

DECEMBER

RDH: NOVEMBER 2019

01/11/19

… good job I checked…

Sketching today but no joy. How to move past this?

02/11/19

A good tidy up in the studio. “H” going well.

03/11/19

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Helping Jan with some wire-wool spinning experiments.

11/11/19

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Recording today and some solid sketchbook time. It’s so important. It is where ideas form and lay roots.

15/11/19

“Long years of secrecy have turned their faces into masks.” - not sure where I heard this from.

16/11/19

Detail of “Helen” - oil and charcoal on canvas.

Detail of “Helen” - oil and charcoal on canvas.

Helen” finished up.

17/11/19

Consciously hold back images.

EMPATHY

22/11/19

What am I doing?

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24/11/19

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Sketchbook work.

25/11/19

“The Art Advocate” podcast - episode 8 is live!

28/11/19

Bizarre

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Delighted to have been commended in the Moth Art Prize 2019!

29/11/19

“Real painters understand with a brush in their hand.”

Berthe Morisot

Need to try and make one little hour of creative work each weekday.

30/11/19

What a difference a boiler makes!