RDH
RDH: July 2025
01/07/25
O.C. - Not successful. Still…
03/07/25
LNAB
‘Here for Now’ ArtsForAll - Maria & Anna Horvathova.
Scott Benefield Trunk Show - Craft NI
‘Inner Space, Outside Place’ - Sarah McConnell / Jeffrey Roberts - Atypical
Shopwork = Vault Group Show.
‘The Ceremony of Falling’ Hana Abri Smith - Rattlebag.
Also, some revisits to Catalyst, Golden Thread and Belfast Exposed.
06/07/25
Studio Time. With two newly primed canvases - revisting some imagery that I feel had/has promise but faltered in a past iteration.
“The Woman with the Dogs” + “To Conjure”
The latter is adding a new image / element alongside the seance scene I tried to depict last year. The initial stages are always filled with such optimism and hope. Then I look at ‘Uniform Hate’ - so much I like about it, a lot more I don’t.
The two figures behind the central officer, they’re nearly the crux of it all. Carrying all the hate. The central figure is the calm in the storm.
…rearrange.
08/07/25
P - worth a look?
09/07/25
Get to grips.
10/07/25
12/07/25
‘Hew Locke - A Brush with…’.
Solid work on new pieces today.
17/07/25
Request sent. Fingers crossed.
Test run a time limit for work depending on size to reduce the risk of overpainting.
Whatever shape it is in by the final day is how it will be.
≤ 50 x 50 cm → 3 studio days
51–99 cm → 5 days
> 100 cm → 7 days
From there, I choose:
A: Leave it as-is after the final studio day (radical / reluctant acceptance)
or
B: Turn to the wall and let it rest for a month, then revisit briefly (cooling-off window)
18/07/25
“I’m coming, I’m coming,
and my head is bending low.
I hear the gentle voices calling,
Poor aul Joe.”
20/07/25
‘Uniform Hate’ finished. Not perfect, but much more I like now than not so that’s it.
Grabbed a mirror and started working from life partly on self-portrait. It was fun, frustrating but fun.
21/07/25
Something really nice about painting with mirror yesterday.
22/07/25
WFH = a lot!
23/07/25
Possible…
27/07/25
‘Twenty Eighteen’ complete. Taken as far as I can, Stuck to guns and 3 studio day limt.
Added bonus - yes, the original drawing is from 2018 but if you add 20 and 18, you get my current age. Meant to be!
RDH: May 2025
01/05/25
LNAB - A Bumper One! - A.B.F.
04/05/25
Self-portrait - destroyed. Frustrating but that’s just the way it goes.
07/05/25
Some practical work tonight.
…50%. Better than nothing. Getting to grips with perceived ‘rut’. Is it a rut or is it just a natural effect from other factors? Practice has always been deeply personal so it's little wonder that there's a subconscious ripple effect happening.
The ‘disconnect’ I'm having with the recent work / work in progress now seems valid. When things are still very raw, it's understandable to numb or distance yourself and for a practice that's always been reflective of my experiences, then there's an issue there.
When the practice relies on a kind of gut-level recognition (imagery needs to speak directly - even found images) wanting to avoid it due to current circumstances seems reasonable.
An external image sparks an internal echo but when you're struggling with internal processing - switching off seems understandable.
Not sure if there's a quick fix - or if I would want to put a ‘sticking plaster’ on it without dealing with the wider issues. Back in … so that's a step. Could also be that I'm too hard on myself. As David Sylvester said “… artists must be allowed to do bad work. They must be allowed to get in a mess…”.
Things to try:
Revisit old sketchbooks.
More journalling - words can lead into visual metaphors.
08/05/25
John Price show in the Engine Room Gallery.
11/05/25
Not trying to reinvent the wheel here! Overthinking as per.
Really good start to what I'm affectionately calling “Pebble Dash” (will not be real title).
Its worth throwing imagery up, taking time to look and experiment with compositions. It's not only fun, but sparks potential ideas into life!
Work also done on “Uniform Hate” background. Work on these have went almost too well too quickly!
13/05/25
Back into PS² to spend more time with Molly Martin's ‘Re/Cusp’ show. Found it incredibly cathartic, sometimes breathing in time with the surroundings and little moments of unease - audible heartbeat echoing in the air.
15/05/25
…Tempted to.
Silence the inner critic - or at least make him smaller.
Just because it's there doesn't mean you have to use it!
Use of yarn to sew ogham onto canvases and then stringing the works together like a weird mind map on the wall.
17/05/25
Man in the Rug.
19/05/25
Going cold turkey. Feels like something has just clicked in my head. Now, tomorrow’s entry could read “what was I thinking!”
Occupy the Present. Already, it will be a case of getting time back. An hour an evening saved - 7 hours a week - that’s a solid day’s work back!
Breathe.
20/05/25
Freud in Titanic, Belfast.
23/05/25
Q.F. - what the hell is this!? Hit by a train. Must remember, it’s the body healing itself and it will pass. Now, to focus on more important matters.
25/05/25
Studio time - this will be the biggest test so far.
Timelapse of “The Weight of Inheritance". Pleased with progress - the others, in a bit of a muchness with them.
The drawing needs stepped up, get the archive lit again and spark interest / ideas.
28/05/25
Dublin - Visit to TBG+S, RHA Show (seeing some familiar faces) and Michael Kane’s show in the Taylor Galleries.
30/05/25
Sketchbook Rawness. When it worked, it really worked. When it didn’t, it really didn’t
31/05/25
Sketchbook studies again to round off the month. Started thinking (here we go - this old chestnut again) - stopping earlier in the process… fell asleep writing!
RDH: March 2025
02/03/25
…it’s finished! Hallelujah!!
This work is taking a lifetime to work out the kinks.
05/03/25
Admin work and a load of stretcher bars home. Had planned on more but literally ran out of time.
06/03/25
Fell asleep on the bus while writing in here… Subsequently have lost my favourite pen to the 212!
Late Night Art Belfast: Majella Clancy in Ulster Presents; Steph Harrison at Atypical Gallery; The Irish Palette in the Engine Room Gallery; Last night of the Catalyst Members’ Show and ‘Cailleach’ at Vault.
08/03/25
09/03/25
Stretching and priming, followed by another round of priming in the evening. No RHA this year.
10/03/25
Been offered a solo for 2026! All chuffed!
13/03/25
Wonderful to be at the opening of 'The Crush' by Sian Costello in PS Squared.
The paintings seem to echo the softened, shifting edges of camera obscura projections, where details are suggested rather than fixed, teasing at recognition before slipping away.
Of the work Sian writes: 'I use my own body and a series of camera obscurae as instruments to magnify and distort the boundaries between what is real and what is the art "work" of composition, lighting, and painterly flair. Through this fractured lens, space opens up beyond the controlling hand of the artist for the narratives told by the subjects themselves.'
'The Crush' runs until the 17th April.
14/03/25
Achilles is banjaxed! Minor injuries is a joke!
15/03/25
A morning of sorting out reference imagery. Feels like nothing productive has been done I know it will prove helpful in the long run.
18/03/25
…RETHINK…
24/03/25
Fancy transit.
27/03/25
It’s been quite a week: Helpdesks, Training in Dublin, More training in Belfast and a student Fair at UU… now first C.H. event.
Imogen is three today. Hard to believe but we can’t picture life without her!
…wisdom to know the difference… It’s not going to be easy.
30/03/25
Studio - drawing up, mapping out structure / composition of a few new canvases.
Feels good to get in the rhythm of making after a good few weeks. Tonal values looking good thus far.
CARVE! CARVE! CARVE! Without dictating a set regimen.
RDH: February 2025
02/02/25
Looking back at ‘targets’ - pleasantly surprised. Yes, the drawing fell short but KEEP IT UP!
03/02/25
Studio. Paring back of background - so much better.
Several older sketches transferred onto acetate.
Taking back sense of self / purpose.
05/02/25
06/02/25
Busy day. Symposium followed by Late Night Art - with a piece made especially for the Catalyst Members’ show taking part!
Struck me last night - shifting to more personal imagery and away from portrait after portrait IS what’s needed - but is a tired rendering of them going to yield exciting results? I don’t think so.
A little more outside the box thinking and care required - other than throwing multiple imagery on one plain. Although that is one way to expand narrative quite quickly….
LNAB
Gerry Gleason’s Skip Sculptures | Philip Arneill in Arcade | Yvette Monaghan Belfast Exposed | Sinéad O’Neill Nichol in VAULT | Joan Alexander in PS2
08/02/25
Ballyliffen celebrations
11/02/25
Very late sketchbook work - AGAIN.
13/02/25
…aiming for a good new habit. BUT there is no point in sulking or beating yourself up if targets are not reached each time. By the same token, there is also little point in setting goals if they are ignored or you don’t try to achieve them. So, do your best but if it falls short of expectations, learn from it and carry on.
16/02/25
Plates be gone!
Multitasking - not my strongest suit.
20/02/25
Golden Thread Visit and application submitted.
22/02/25
… kicking my ass!
“A Brush with Somaya Critchlow”.
Hilarious! RD was hijacked - brilliant! Goldilocks - just right.
… fingers crossed though that once it’s done and out, a real flurry will take place.
23/02/25
25/02/25
26/02/25
Array at RUA RED. Something quite cathartic singing Bette Midler to a squad of police Land Rovers.
27/02/25
What does the inner critic say? TW, L, NGE.
Carrying on my engagement with the subjective experience - particularly around trauma. That is something. Interpretation of images … unique.
CRINGE ENDUCING!
RDH: JANUARY 2025
02/01/25
Sketching - coming back!
05/01/25
Early studio session - Looking at “Gathered” … it’s finished.
Bit of a push and pull on Commission.
NOSFERATU - GREAT!
06/01/25
First day back in Belfast - COLD!
07/01/25
Double deadlines and an open call.
08/01/25
Personal interrogation - double mirrors? Will be good to dust cobwebs off.
What to put into xxx?
Popped round to Golden Thread Gallery on lunch.
Shirin Neshat installation in the Golden Thread Gallery.
Such a headache but it will pass.
09/01/25
GET IT DONE!
Three in the Morning by Charys Wilson at PS2 - fab!
Ran around … but no joy.
Sarah Maple Call me Mother in the Naughton - wonderful show.
(…. add mirror plates).
11/01/25
,,, Done all here I can at the moment.Seemd flst at the minute Still to br
12/01/25
Sketchbook studies in the morning.
13/01/25
Double Submitted!
15/01/25
Dropped '“Gathered” over for Catalyst Members’ Show. Should be a good one!
16/01/25
17/01/25
It might look like a phone induced dopamine hitting laziness - but I do want to try and utilise certain aspects better. Are multiples worth it or is it better to do just one really well?
Will mull this over but in the meantime, gather images to set into … folders.
Late Night Self Portrait sketch.
18/01/25
Should have seen this coming - getting too caught up. Yes, it’s a good idea to curate some meaningful aspects but, and this will always be the case, making the work is and always will be top of the pile.
Less scrollin’, more rollin’.
Setting distractions away to write really helps.
Watched ‘Longlegs’ tonight. The dolls shrouded in a black sheet - but with the demonic red eyes showing through - it has really unsettled me. Like one of Magritte’s lovers but on a bad trip.
19/01/25
Sunday Studio Session - (and pre-session list).
…colour restructure? Starting over isn’t the end of the world. It could be that it’s too small to tackle the source material properly.
And restarted I did. Got to the point of the second looking further ahead than the original pretty quickly. Should use the little canvas as a guinea pig - test out ideas.
Change the background - make it my own. It’s too safe at the minute.
21/01/25
A late night (probably too late a night) of sketchbook studies.
23/01/25
‘Misaligned’ by Katherine Penney in Ulster Presents. Moving work - beautiful use of space.
Bracing now for storm Eowyn.
24/01/25
Guts of three trees fell out our back and power has been off since early morning.
Saw part of one of the trees come down this morning. The thud it made!
Ambient candlelight.
26/01/25
A sketching and scanning day.
29/01/25
Dublin. Eileen Leonard Sealy’s paintings in the LAB Gallery - excellent.
30/01/25
I’ve veered more and mroe away from raison d'être.
Stick Shed. Personal motifs. Untapped.
Dervla O’Flaherty and David Dunnes’ shows in Cultúrlann.
Retrospect - …preferred… with older painting upside down (two tones).
… more of me in there.
RDH: NOVEMBER 2024
01/11/24
Pretty sure this is Dad in the Vectra circa 2000.
02/11/24
H, F & M.
…taking a back seat.
04/11/24
Escalation
05/11/24
Late night home.
06/11/24
The fun never stops!
07/11/24
Collected. No late night art for me this month. Exhaustion has taken over.
08/11/24
Proposal started. Excited to stretch and prime canvas tomorrow! Nerd Alert!
In the chaos of the past few weeks, I forgot to note that I’ve had a lovely delivery of a 10m roll of canvas and primer.
09/11/24
Didn’t realise I had so much primer! Two canvases, stretched and primed with one coat (plus one bloodied thumb).
Sketchbook time - this definitely needs time allotted to…
… came back to finish off the two drawings started earlier on. It can be done - just needs some discipline and manoeuvring.
10/11/24
‘Natural Alignments’
GET OUT THERE!
***Updating from loss and eventual return of diary***
12/11/24
MAC Show - beautiful and just a joy to immerse yoursself in. Wonderful homage.
Weird seeing D.M.’s paintings again after so long. Remember getting my graduation photos from NWRC in front of them.
17/11/24
Can’t believe I’ve lost track of RD. First time ever in fourteen plus years and quite annoyed at myself.
ADAPT - MOVE ON - WORK
Primed canvases with second coat. In terms of C’s submission, materials gathering and experimentation ongoing.
18/11/24
Dublin - Day 1. Lights out in middle of set up.
19/11/24
GTG a great success. Good night had by all.
20/11/24
Dublin Day 3. Brian Maguire in the Hugh Lane. Glorious large scale works and great to see some old favourites I first saw in VOID a few years ago.
Mariechen Danz at the Project Arts Centre - Shadows and Spines.
Douglas Hyde Gallery - ‘LAND’ group show. Beautiful video work from Pinar Öğrenci in situ - videos on display will change to change throughout the run. Tried to get into another space - was not allowed with suitcase in tow.
Lastly the LAB before the bus home. Vanessa Daws’ show inspired by endurance swimming pioneer Mercedes Gleitze. Great show but still filled me with anxiety looking at open water.
Home … and finished submission.
21/11/24
Reunited with diary!
24/11/24
Studio - started commission. Beginning to incorporate moss into c.m.s piece - painting into the final layer of primer. Waiting game.
More progress on ‘L.Y.s.V’.
Love was spread a little in the studio today - bits and pieces worked on in different areas. Covering all the bases.
27/11/24
Dublin again!
28/11/24
RDH: SEPTEMBER 2024
01/09/24
Should LOFT TALK return?
05/09/24
Met Khaled Barakeh at his show in the MAC.
Late Night Art - Belfast Exposed, DAS, PS2 and VAULT.
06/09/24
‘Hindsight Study’ into RAA show!
08/09/24
Slow and steady progress on new portrait.
12/09/24
Basil Blackshaw: Selected Works in Ulster Presents. Always something incredibly moving about the last work an artist worked on. Almost like a lifetime's experience culminating into one last piece.
Late Night Art - East Belfast. Visit to Platform, Strand Arts Centre, Arts Care and Creative Exchange. Loud in between.
Have really gotten out of the way of note taking. Subbed for worse habits. How to rectify? Stop. Breathe. Think.
15/09/24
Studio time. Portrait - ‘Never Be Seen’. All but there. Some moments where the background tone looks fine and works well and others where it looks like a mistake and falls apart. Chips and changes - probably down to the light through the day (or indecisiveness).
Resting on it for now.
22/09/24
One week on and yes, the background definitely needs addressed. Worked it so its back to a very similar colour to how it started. Finished and full circle.
29/09/24
Studio and 'Tesla' painting is gone - for now. Drawing up new works.
What words or text become like the ground of a painting?
Glenn Ligon - The Week in Art podcast.
'Spare Change Study', ‘Running Errands', 'Repulsion from a Clown'.
Some good starts. 'RfaC’ redeemed somewhat for now.
RDH: AUGUST 2024
02/08/24
Studio time finally - after a slightly longer than usual cleaning session.
Not much progress made with “Turn to Page Five” but still feels great to put paint down after seventeen days of renovating, family time and north coast fun!
04/08/24
“Restraint Study” handed in. Crossed fingers…
Took myself up to the Ulster Museum afterwards to finally catch the two Caravaggio works together for a rare time since the 17th Century.
“The Supper at Emmaus” (1601) and “The Taking of Christ” (1602). The first time in a long time where I just sat in awe. Spent nearly an hour just soaking them up (from near and far). He really was the master of light and shadow. Today has brought memories back of my last trip to the National Gallery in London back in 2019 and a reaction in front of another Caravaggio - “Boy Bitten by a Lizard” (1594-1596). Skipping past pockets of school kids getting guided tours, I stumbled upon it, right in the corner of the room.
There was a guide giving a talk to a class of children about a much larger painting just beside the Caravaggio. Can’t mind what it was - but it was a big canvas. Anyway, I’m looking at the painting and I suddenly start to feel myself well up - and I couldn’t stop it. I started crying.
I remember being in shock and some of the class beside me were staring and whispering among other. Because of where the Caravaggio was in the gallery, I was sort of pinned in with the school kids sitting on the floor all around listening to the guide speak. I eventually had to make a break for it, snaking past them to get out. First time I ever cried at a work.
The next time that happened I think was with Daniel Coleman’s epic work in the MAC show a while back. The sheer audacity of scale, the use of colour in the limited palette - everything took breath away to the point I got choked up.
06/08/24
Called round to check out ‘The Shape of a Pocket’ exhibition at Catalyst Arts curated by Dougal MacKenzie and Christopher Hanlon.
“Hindsight Study” submitted…
07/08/24
Back to spinning plates.
10/08/24
The Golden Thread Gallery has reopened with shows by Robin Price, Charlotte Bosanquet, Rob Hilken and Graham Fagen.
11/08/24
Honey ate more paint than I thought. More put out. “Turn to Page Five” - dark, ochry brown background? Semi-transparent?
FINISHED. Thought I had nearly messed it up with a little too much fixative but managed to pull it back OK.
12/08/24
“Restraint Study” accepted into the RUA! Chuffed!
18/08/24
Three wonderful years - and a lifetime ahead!
Tried a jaunt to the studio - not feeling it. Will try to block in some colour to “bin” piece.
22/08/24
Sketchbook work before bed.
So, after a layer or two on the “bin” piece, it was time to say goodbye. Just wasn't working, especially with the background. So working a new image on top and starting a new portrait from scratch on a nice, clean canvas.
28/08/24
Dublin reconn.
29/08/24
Re-group…
31/08/24
Sixteen Years. Hard to fathom.
RDH: JUNE 2024
02/06/24
Studio - focus on one image…
Well, some days just don’t go the way you want them to. Bit of a damp squid in the studio. Superficial work on ‘mugshot’ (working title). Vented frustration out on cleaning the yard.
05/06/24
Organising archive.
06/06/24
Late Night Art - Belfast. Traditional Route.
09/06/24
‘The Week in Art’ podcast discussing Studio Voltaire and Martha Jungwirth’s take on Goya. “Turning off the facuet of emotion.” (on O’Keefe).
The Sleep of reason.
‘Talk Art’ with Nathanaëlle Herbelin.
“Hindsight” - So bloody close! Frustrating. Too thick in hair and isn’t dynamic as rest of picture. Deep breath. Could be worse and be no where near close to finishing - silver charcoal filled linings.
Still haven’t heard anything from S.P. show.
12/06/24
…found wanting. Rinse head - take a step back and look at the bigger picture.
F.W.A.
13/06/24
Being really fucking ballsy!
14/06/24
Didn’t get solo chance. Ah well. Up to Belfast for opening of ArtsFest III.
Great turnout!
16/06/24
Cleaning works in the lower garage. Some damaged beyond repair.
“Hindsight Study” finished. Some substantial progress to “Four Years On”.
19/06/24
23/06/24
Great day.
25 + 26/24
Family sick days so just a total wipeout.
Visual / Ocular Migraine.
30/06/24
Started the day off bright and early with some sketching from photos taken throughout the week.
“Four Years On” finished.
Larger portrait started. Good way to end the month.
RDH: APRIL 2024
Clothing detail work on “Last Fancy Dress” and a promising start on “They Had It Coming”. Keep it raw - how do you describe that?
11/04/24
Submission 1.
16/04/24
Submission 2. Ran out of time for drawing work.
17/04/24
Sketchbook work.
S.A.W.E.D.
18/04/24
Submission 3 - an open call.
21/04/24
Studio - pre paint notes:
Headscarf - maroon?
Background - a sickly yellow / green (not unlike “Amy Study”.
Now that the canvas is covered (no more blankness) - it’s show time.
24/04/24
Dublin bound. Really bad that I have gotten out of the way writing in this. [slaps wrist].
S.V. confirmed! Class!
Popped into the LAB Gallery to see “Emergency Knowledge: The Missing Archives - Vagabond Reviews”. Great to see Save Our Sperrins highlighted among other important causes.
25/04/24
OK, so I’ve been putting this off for a while and now, it seems that bus time is usually RD time these days.
Project idea I had maybe ten years ago: record a sitter - up close in portrait whilst asking questions - mix of mundane and psychological. Between each question - leave around 20 - 30 seconds. The sitter remains silent throughout - more of an introspective process. The idea was to then take still of video and convert to painting.
What if…
test demo screenshot from 2014
instead of a static camera on tripod (that I tried back in 2014) - the footage moved in, out and around the sitter?
And…
instead of working off individual stills on separate works - merging onto one surface. Showing a variation in composition, scale and method of painting depending on the image taken throughout the test?
So, let’s take stock…
Four submissions done in past 6 weeks plus an SV!
Sketchbook work tonight - since brain is firing on a few more cylinders than usual.
27/04/24
Four years. Surreal.
28/04/24
Studio time.
Well, after nearly losing it on the skin tones - “THIC” turned out better than I could have hoped. A strange feeling.
30/04/24
“mother tongue” in the MAC - GREAT!
Dorothy Hunter’s work took breath away! Bloody brilliant.
RDH: MARCH 2024
02/03/24
C. S. - death note. (video grab possibly)
03/03/24
‘Séance’ piece might have had its day. Setting it away for now. ‘Final Fancy Dress’ - good progress made. Tight in portrait and looser strokes in the clothing.
06/03/24
Alright - lazy / stupid. No ifs, no buts.
10/03/24
Background progress on ‘badger’ piece. ‘Séance’ has been cleansed. Just went too far. Compositionally flawed from the offset and was fighting a losing battle. Lesson learnt.
12/03/24
Didn’t get in. A bit annoyed but there is always next year.
13/03/24
Bit the bullet and took the initiative. A nice reply - now trying to not get ahead of myself.
‘Mother’ exhibition at Vault Studios.
17/03/24
Drew up F.W. on large canvas and some good tonal progress on ‘Gallery Visit’ today in the studio. Background more vibrant perhaps?
21/03/24
Golden Thread Gallery’s touring exhibition ‘How We Got To…’ in Shankhill Library.
22/03/24
‘Restraint Study’ and ‘Amy Study’ submitted. 🤞
23/03/24
Trip to Derry for VOID Arts Centre opening ‘Composting for the Future’. Harking back to projects of the past yet paving a new, more collaborative direction.
24/03/24
‘Gallery Visit’ - few tweaks, bit more blurring and hey presto - finito!
27/03/24
28/03/24
Did not make the long-list. Ah well.
30/03/24
Trip to Portaferry and a slight change in plans for Sunday. Back to the studio all being well next week!
RDH: DECEMBER 2023
03/12/23
Very cold in the studio. Can’t be a put off though.
Séance piece:
Wall and floor = re-adjust
Blue Figure = push back / get rid of
The woman in blue - basically taking away from the overall composition.
… Getting there. Simplified the back wall. Colours are all wrong but at least it’s going in the right direction structurally.
07/12/23
Warhol at the Hugh Lane, Dublin - Excellent
09/12/23
A round of image gathering is in order. Juices.
10/12/23
14/12/23
Isn’t it funny how a conversation can be the spark that begins to slot pieces into place…
Winter months are slow in the studio - always have been - there’s nothing new there.
What is different is the less time being allocated to focus on drawing [rephrase] not making enough time to focus on drawing elements. TIME CAN BE MADE!
”Artists reflect on what is happening”Rachel Whiteread
SKETCHING
17/12/23
Studio.
Background work on ‘soldier’ piece and a new portrait started over an abandoned canvas.
Drew the charcoal into a fresh layer of white. Will see what comes of it.
18/12/23
Applied.
23/12/23
I do enjoy looking back over the year that’s about to pass. One eye on the past yada yada.
There has been no strict recordkeeping so an idea flashes in and then fades out only to pop in later in a diluted and obscure way where I struggle to recollect the initial instance. Should be rectified. Plenty of ways to keep quick notes.
Joints are aching from the impending dose.
25/12/23
Merry Christmas. Very mindful… so counting blessings and appreciating the little joys.
26/12/23
It’s been a strange one. Anything but restful.
Crow - Chimera - spark/spark/spark.
28/12/23
In the studio and had intended to clean palette ahead of some painting time tomorrow but there’s just too much good paint out to waste. Some looking and notes to aid tomorrow:
Séance in London - notes:
It’s a bloody séance - it shouldn’t make sense.
Remove shadows
Push fireplace back (cooler / lighter)
Chairs - are they needed?
Omit / darken bottom section.
Again, it doesn’t have to make sense. It’s a nonsensical act. Defying logic so the picture shouldn’t live by those rules.
Soldier Piece - notes:
(layer of white on right figure’s clothes done)
Alter skin tones - middle too cold, left too warm. Find a balance. Soldier has seen / committed horrors - bare this in mind.
29/12/23
A good solid day in the studio - and the last one of the year. Loads of coffee.
‘Séance’ - fireplace removed, chairs gone and front three figures blocked in again. Compositionally, it’s definitely a step in the right direction. How does one make an image ominous?
[insert researched answer here] e.g.: 'Fuseli’s ‘The Nightmare’
The little portrait study came about very quickly. A much looser approach so far and some nice elements in the painting. It does run the risk, however, of muddiness so must be mindful.
Last Studio shot of the year.
30/12/23
Asleep after lunch … never thought I would see the day.
…outline of concrete that covers crack in the wall outside. Repurposing shapes you see every day into works.
Five Uneven Steps.
RDH: NOVEMBER 2023
01/11/23
Beautiful print by Chloe Austin arrives in the post!
02/11/23
Late Night Art Belfast - another cracker!
Cameron Clarke’s exhibition in DAS, probably one of the best installations I’ve seen in a long time. The perfect week for it - ending the spooky season with a bang.
05/11/23
Studio - setting aside the two large works for now and going to focus on the two portraits in progress.
It was all going so well until… working on ‘Indifferent Study’ and thought I would be productive in between waiting on a thin layer of paint to set. Began chopping some firelighters for later and…... BAD IDEA! Took a decent chunk out of side of a finger. Just when I was getting into a rhythm! It will heal but my favourite pen won’t. It died this evening too. Doesn’t bad things come in threes?
11/11/23
Short Studio Session. ‘Indifferent Study’ = Hair OK, surprisingly. Eyes / mouth needs tweaked. Skin Tone: slight contrast needed between light and shade.
FINISHED!
See, little checklists of what to focus on before lifting a brush work!
14/11/23
Morning Traffic
16/11/23
BVAF: re-energised and eager to take pro-active steps in art community in city.
19/11/23
S.S.S.
‘Amy Study’: Background - dimmed / dulled - green gold + payne’s grey? Need to get a grip - FOCUS / PRIORITISE / WORK!
…was not expecting to finish this portrait today. Creating little checklists in between layers really does help to critically evaluate the work as it goes - pushes for focus.
Getting to the point where I feel an outlet is needed. What’s holding me back…
Cogs are a turning…
Keening
I have a secret - I listen to Radio 3 to drift off.
21/11/23
An impressive build
23/11/23
The streets are arteries.
Pope L. - advice to the young…
Stuck on a canvas for months. Tutor at the time saw him struggling and said:
“WRITE ON IT!”
Exorcise your thoughts and things will stem from it.
26/11/23
29/11/23
Come rain, hail or shine (but more than likely frost) … solid brainstorming session.
The hmming and writing is all well and good but if you’re actively not doing anything - then it’s just noise.
30/11/23
Weird lights in the sky over Glenshane. Six evenly spaced lights in a diagonal - no sound.
DEBUNKED! Mystery solved, Musk’s star link.
RDH: AUGUST 2023
02/08/23
Securing loose ends this week. Collecting and dropping off work.
Still from “THE NEW DAWN FADES” by Clare Langan at the Golden Thread Gallery.
09/08/23
Fell through. In any case it was still an honour to have been asked alongside the other artists!
11/08/23
14/08/23
Wonderful time over in London. Tried to paint today. Stared at the work for ages but nothing leaped out. Sometimes just looking can be productive. Time to re-energise and heal.
15/08/23
Now may be a suitable time to take own advice and reach out…. can’t just fire a blanket. Have enough work.
17/08/23
Reset desperately needed. Very distracted creatively at the minute. Whatever time can be set aside MUST be used for artistic purposes. Hopefully will get on the right track. Am I too harsh on myself?
Pleased to be a part of Catalyst Arts Member’s Show.
20/08/23
Some progress but not much. Don’t want to dwell on this too much but, as an honest self-assessment in a diary context, WTF. The will to paint is there at times, at others it’s the furthest thing from mind. Perhaps if there were one or two short - medium term targets. Something to aim for may light the fire again.
21/08/23
23/08/23
Yesterday… will remain nameless but they reminded me of the passion and push to create. Jan had noticed when I haven’t made work in a while my mood goes down, procrastination increases and there’s a that wee spiral downwards.
Accepting you’re in a rut.
Take a Break - self care.
Collaborate with others.
Change it Up.
Search for Inspiration
Keep Going
Morning pages - keep moving the pen. Don’t stop writing.
Pages 1 -3: Uncontrolled free writing
Page 4: Reflection on the day.
Advice from subconscious. Not showing my best self. Live by example. To be able to hold your head high. Shake it off and move on.
Clean, workable space
Back to the drawing board (there is a reason this is a saying)
30 minutes of drawing / research is better than 30 minutes of trash TV. Use time wisely!
24/08/23
I wonder if the morning papers would work for sketchbook work. Probably not unlike what Maggie Hambling does as part of her morning routine.
It’s a beautiful morning. The sun is blinding in the brilliant flashes as the bus winds and turns heading across the river Bann. Wall to wall blue. …solo heart to heart, I did my best to be less distracted last night. It’s about being conscious about the negative habits and aiming to nip them in the bud as quick as possible that should really make pay dividends.
Sore neck = Poor Posture.
…give myself permission…
You’d think that well over a decade I should know the answer.
IDEAS / DRAWING / REFLECTIONS / LISTS
Anything goes. The only rule is to put pen to paper every day as much as possible.
Life has a way of happening around you so if shit happens and venting is needed. That’s OK. A.i.L. - L.i.A.
Observing more can only be a good thing - possible leads into other areas of practice. Maybe best to not get too carried away.
Called into Anne Butler’s show “Objects in Time” at the GT on lunch. Such beautiful detail and intricacy in something so delicate and heavy. Love it when materials aim to confuse - mimic characteristics of another.
27/08/23
“Ready to Go” - does it need scaled up? Looking at the “Rooftop / Marina” piece, there are elements in the city scape that are working. Nice, loose and gestural marks but it still needs a lot of work. For the roof in the foreground, less charcoal marks perhaps? Just get something down.
“RtG” charcoaled up, witg the figure more prominent, its already looks like a far more intertersting composition. Solid progres on “Marina” today, especially the cityscape. SSS' aren’t to be taken lightly.
NB: SSS stands for Short Sunday Sessions.
28/08/23
APPLY
30/08/23
Dublin - Curved street is great!
31/08/23
Looking forward to ARRAY event tonight.
Fifteen years. Fifteen years since my outlook was altered forever. Still raw, even after all this time. Anniversaries reel back the pain like a fishing line. You cast it off eventually, but it will always come back. Wrote that like Senior.
“The Night Draws Near” by Array at the Ulster Museum. Wonderful experience.
BE PRESENT!
I will remember the chorus; singing as we were led up to the Síbín for a long time.
RDH: JUNE 2023
03/06/23
Late night transferring… some drawings that have slipped through the net over the years.
04/06/23
Early rise - Early balloon
Two new canvases sketched out.
06/06/23
08/06/23
Test prints in the post today!
09/06/23
Watch this space.
10/06/23
Studio cleaned, layered on two new smaller pieces, and cleaned palette.
11/06/23
…no more diddly-dallyin’, let’s get right on into this Sunday studio session. (IYKYK)
Substantial progress on “Put it Away”. Little prayer piece, not so much.
12/06/23
So “Put it Away” moving along nicely and a little surprisingly. The new paints are making a difference, I think.
13/06/23
Visit to the Belfast School of Art Degree Show.
14/06/23
Didn’t get to sketch tonight as intended but there will be time set aside.
Mythology / Semiotics
…venturing onwards…
It’s just dawned on me that Saturdays will alter. Well, they’ll change a good few times in the coming years. But - as always, adapt, re-organise, create, repeat.
15/06/23
After all that graft … to be left at home.
Lovely comment today. Left painting over to Catalyst for showcase and auction coming up.
18/06/23
Studio time now. Let’s see where these go.
Quick notes for Prey/Pray:
charcoal first
contrast facial tones
less marks in hair - blurred or subdued
Quick notes for “In a Corner/ Huff”
Scrape paint on walls - flatter
T-Shirt work
NB: Didn’t get as much done as I would like to.
19/06/23
PRINTS HAVE DROPPED!!!
20/06/23
FB Memories - use to dust cobwebs off? Also just having the small sketchbook close by - for out and about.
Is it too fuzzy? Probably do no harm to have the mini sketchbook around with me - as was the original idea for it.
One thing I have noticed, and it’s a good thing. With the two journeys on the bus three times a week and the time at lunch, I’ve noticed some considerably more writing / thinking time / ideas coming into RD.
I’ve even started bringing a book with me on the bus. Although The Iliad was probably a poor first choice. I am eager to delve into mythology / symbolism again.
The legend of “Bisclavret” has been crawling through my head the past few days.
IIW = IMAGES IN WAITING
21/06/23
Quick stop to see the work in Catalyst’s Showcase.
Very fast and very loose sketchbook study.
22/06/23
23/06/23
Our beautiful Bonnie, my studio assistant and my dad’s blonde shadow passed away in her sleep last night. Everyone is hurting. 12 and a half wonderful years. The best girl.
24/06/23
…called in to say hello… folds around eye went in such a way that it looked like he didn’t have a socket let alone an eye. Hard to explain.
Quick Question = Very Quick Yes
25/06/23
“A Brush With… Jacqueline Humphries”.
Finished “Let Us Pray”. Areas successful, others not.
28/06/23
Dublin Bound.
Culchie boy, I love you / Grá mo chroí thú, mo chábóigín féin – Kian Benson Bailes at the Project Arts Centre.
“an atom bomb in each morsel of life” by Katherine Sankey in the LAB Gallery. Beautiful aroma in that first box space.
Sunset over Slieve Gallion
RDH: MAY 2023
02/05/23
First day…
Make time for practice.
03/05/23
04/05/23
…the drive to help.
Late Night Art Belfast. The first in a long time.
07/05/23
“Boy Soldier” - finished.
Two new little pieces started this afternoon too!
09/05/23
New EMIC piece in Belfast City Centre
13/05/23
Sent feelers out…
14/05/23
Need to tread carefully with this one.
19/05/23
Supplies!
20/05/23
A good tidy up of the studio.
21/05/23
Studio time.
Going somewhere and then damn near destroyed ‘Mugshot’ piece. Taking some time and stepping back helped save the day.
Looking is still working.
Brought it back. Relying too heavily on the charcoal mark can sometimes lead to images turning into a caricature of itself. Pared back the drawing line - focussed on the tones and limited palette that don’t stray too far from each other. Much more successful as a whole now. Bit more to go but good otherwise.
25/05/23
Luc Tuymans - surgical precision. All working out is done beforehand - composition, colours, size, materials all planned in advance so that intelligence goes from the brain (in the preparation stages) to the hand (in the making). I don’t know if that would work for me. That split second spontaneity - yes it can go wrong and often does - is needed for play with materials. Having a regimented script when painting would not work for me.
Need to catch a grip. Too easily distracted by shiny things.
27/05/23
“Egon Schiele: Dangerous Desires” on Iplayer.
28/05/23
Studio.
“What fascinates you about that bastard?”
Definitely evokes a response. Is it worth it to get response based on the sources for the work rather than the work itself? A pickle. It’s not a glorification of a person’s actions. It is a study, an investigation of a portrait of evil. Aesthetic response to traumatic event.
Ethics vs Aesthetics.
In the end, I’m never speaking or working for anyone but myself.
Wee bit of progress on little prayer canvas. Could the two be companion pieces?
31/05/23
Dublin bound.
RHA show - an art overload but in the best way!
Quick stop in Temple Bar and glad I saw performance for Fanny Gicquel’s show “breathing with heels, walking with eyes”. Also popped into Project Art Centre to catch “Got Damp / Púscadh Anuas” by Avril Corroon.
RDH: APRIL 2022
01/04/22
First bath.
02/04/22
…only to have the computer crash.
06/04/22
The best of intentions.
07/04/22
Sketchbook work. Blowing off the cobwebs.
08/04/22
Great to meet a good friend for a coffee and a chat.
10/04/22
14/04/22
Need to find a centre ground in practice. It’s been an amazing 18 days with the beginnings of family life.
Red Head Redemption?
16/04/22
Nari Ward on ‘A Brush With’
“Chance is a material.” - N.W.
Really pleased with how ‘Girl with Red Hair’ turned out. Little bit of ogham incorporated into the sleeve - hangover from the Catalyst residency? No bad thing.
18/04/22
Delegate. Divide (time) and Conquer.
23/04/22
Just seen EMIC on ‘The Art that Made Us’ on BBC.
Incredible! So delighted for EMIC. What a platform and in such amazing company!
24/04/22
Some good movement in the studio today. There does seem to be a struggle with imagery at the minute. Solution: back to the drawing board. Literally. Setting time aside for drawing will help no end.
One Month old!
28/04/22
Sketchbook work tonight. Limited but worthwhile.
30/04/22
Little comparison to W.C. Honoured.
Studio time. “In the Pond” is getting there but need to be careful not to over paint.
…some interest in a selection process?
RDH: MARCH 2022
01/03/22
So pleased to have been asked to contribute in the latest issue of Visual Artists Ireland News Sheet.
Meteorological Spring is here.
Nice to catch up with the Ogham crew again.
02/03/22
Loose drawing in response to J.A.’s prompt and RMc’s drawings.
03/03/22
…done now…
05/03/22
Belfast. ‘Don’t Look’ piece is done I think.
Smooth out the dog / red?
New piece / Loosey Goosey
* LOOK AT WHAT’S HAPPENING IN THE SPACE! *
Nearly ruined ‘Ode’ piece with a flood of red. Hopefully brought it back.
06/03/22
Didn’t stray too far.
07/03/22
Really good chat with writer for ‘Ogham’.
08/03/22
It’s never going to be finished!
12/03/22
Final day of ‘Ogham’ residency.
Painted me wee heart out, finishing two larger pieces and having some fun with the smaller study of Stephanie Tanney’s casts.
Wet walk home.
13/03/22
A slight onset of melancholia creeping up now that the residency is over. But, the show is still to come!
15/03/22
A process of threads?
All of this is temporary?
A pause in the process?
Settling of the sands?
THIS IS NOT THE END
17/03/22
Exhibition open to the public today.
20/03/22
Louise Bourgeois - “A spider creates from it’s own body.”
Pregnant with atmosphere, enigma.
New work in progress.
Great to get painting in garage today and get palette cleaned up.
27/03/22
Imogen Rhonda Kielt, born in the early hours of Mother’s Day. 7lbs 6oz. Perfect and everyone well.
Can see so many loved ones’ faces in this tiny new one. It’s just incredible.
29/03/22
Working to find a rhythm.
31/03/22
Belfast Bound. Helped add some chalk to Joy’s Entry for Rachel Macmanus’ superb performance. So good to see the show in the flesh blown and all involved in the project at Catalyst Arts.
It’s been a great experience at a time I will never forget.
RDH: DECEMBER 2021
Sadly just a short stint in the studio.
05/12/21
“Infant Terrible” finished. - Less is more.
09/12/21
Dire.
14/12/21
Tinnitus - bit of a surprise.
Great to finally see John Rainey’s ‘SLIP TANK’ in the Naughton Gallery today. Hands down, the best sculptor in the North.
15/12/21
“The impulse to discover and re-contextualise rather than to generate a picture reintroduces questions of intention. Why did they pick that? What did they do to it? To what end?”
16/12/21
Fractured narratives.
Sketchbook time. Good to do something creative for the first time in a long while.
18/12/21
Light at the end of the tunnel?
21/12/21
‘The Sky Gives Way’ Solstice performance by Méabh Meir and Emma Brennan with Array Collective.