february
RDH: FEBRUARY 2021
01/02/21
Blessings this morning.
…it’s not animals.
02/02/21
04/02/21
05/02/21
Some paint down but not much.
07/02/21
Trip to the Derry Vaccine Centre.
08/02/21
10/02/21
Fingers crossed.
11/02/21
Rookie mistake so sketchbook work instead.
13/02/21
Less doodle and more noodle.
15/02/21
Great news!
16/02/21
Need to make a point of getting into the studio tomorrow.
17/02/21
A lot of scraping and pushing around paint to “Washing of Hands” piece. It may be, for right now, I’m forcing works that are stagnating. As solid as they may be compositionally I feel at a loss with where to go next. Could be why I’m drawing a hell of a lot more lately - looking for other avenues?
In any case it felt great to move paint about for the first time in a while.
18/02/21
Fully intended - FROZE - self-doubt.
20/02/21
Self actualisation - making real of the inner self.
22/02/21
Back to work!
…little more interactive.
23/02/21
…collapsed. Postural hypotension.
24/02/21
HBKA!!!
25/02/21
“Titles are an extra brushstroke”
Clarification
27/02/21
Poor … way too much going on at the one time.
Reading round is back! So happy to see those faces!
Little bit of self-doubt still here. If I try to force it, the doubt seems to grow roots. Flip side of that is that you can the self-doubt can stagnate and you can then avoid going into the studio all together.
GET IN BUT NO PRESSURE
Bleached out several canvases on a spur of the moment this evening. I think starting again / fresh thinking is the best option. Out with the old.
28/02/21
Well, completely cleared the window piece. Aiming to start Spring with a spring in step so I’ve drawn up few pieces and see where they lead.
RDH: FEBRUARY 2019
01/02/19
Slight change of tact…
02/02/19
03/02/19
05/02/19
Lagging behind.
06/02/19
Applications submitted.
09/02/19
DISTRACTIONS leads to NOT DOING WORK leads to FEELINGS OF GUILT leads to DISTRACTIONS leads to NOT DOING WORK leads to FEELINGS OF GUILT leads to DISTRACTIONS leads to NOT DOING WORK leads to FEELINGS OF GUILT leads to DISTRACTIONS leads to NOT DOING WORK leads to FEELINGS OF GUILT leads to DISTRACTIONS leads to NOT DOING WORK leads to FEELINGS OF GUILT leads to DISTRACTIONS leads to NOT DOING WORK leads to FEELINGS OF GUILT leads to … etc etc.
How do you combat this?
“Discipline is key" - JG
Break the cycle by physically setting time aside for practice. Depending on the day of the week and other commitments, the type of productive work will differ.
10/02/19
12/02/19
16/02/19
“What’s for you won’t go past you.”
Reworked pattern and colours on clown today.
17/02/19
Great to get painting today albeit a little later than I would have liked.
Counting works - didn’t realise there were so many!
23/02/19
Belfast. Great to see the last day of ‘The Question of Feeling at Home’ in PS² - curated by Moran Been-Noon. Bonus to get a run down from Moran about the show and to see Cecilia Bullo’s work in the flesh! Been excited to see it since her talk in the DLR LexIcon last year. Next was a visit to Belfast Exposed for the ACNI collection show with a solo show by Linda Conroy in the upstairs space. Conroy’s work is disturbing and utterly absorbing at the same time. Removing notions of the individual from religious ritual resonated with me personally. Then it was on to ‘Porous Plane’ by Lennon in the Golden Thread Gallery. The sheer scale and vibrancy of the work was immense. In the information leaflet it says that “no knowledge is required to enjoy the beauty of these paintings” and that Lennon “invites each of us to find ourselves and arrive at our own inclusions”. Leaving room for the viewer is something I’m particularly keen on.
Lastly onto the wonderful ‘Alternate Perspective’ in Platform featuring work by Aimee MeLaugh and Karl Hagan. Both reflect on ‘memory, people, places and trauma’. The grandeur of history painting coupled with highly personal and intimate narratives. Wonderful painting exhibition.
25/02/19
Project profile submitted.
27/02/19
It’s the journey not the destination.
28/02/19
Nearly into third month and nothing really to show for it. Plenty of works in progress but not enough progress being made.