Studio time finally - after a slightly longer than usual cleaning session.
Not much progress made with “Turn to Page Five” but still feels great to put paint down after seventeen days of renovating, family time and north coast fun!
04/08/24
“Restraint Study” handed in. Crossed fingers…
Took myself up to the Ulster Museum afterwards to finally catch the two Caravaggio works together for a rare time since the 17th Century.
“The Supper at Emmaus” (1601) and “The Taking of Christ” (1602). The first time in a long time where I just sat in awe. Spent nearly an hour just soaking them up (from near and far). He really was the master of light and shadow. Today has brought memories back of my last trip to the National Gallery in London back in 2019 and a reaction in front of another Caravaggio - “Boy Bitten by a Lizard” (1594-1596). Skipping past pockets of school kids getting guided tours, I stumbled upon it, right in the corner of the room.
There was a guide giving a talk to a class of children about a much larger painting just beside the Caravaggio. Can’t mind what it was - but it was a big canvas. Anyway, I’m looking at the painting and I suddenly start to feel myself well up - and I couldn’t stop it. I started crying.
I remember being in shock and some of the class beside me were staring and whispering among other. Because of where the Caravaggio was in the gallery, I was sort of pinned in with the school kids sitting on the floor all around listening to the guide speak. I eventually had to make a break for it, snaking past them to get out. First time I ever cried at a work.
The next time that happened I think was with Daniel Coleman’s epic work in the MAC show a while back. The sheer audacity of scale, the use of colour in the limited palette - everything took breath away to the point I got choked up.
06/08/24
Called round to check out ‘The Shape of a Pocket’ exhibition at Catalyst Arts curated by Dougal MacKenzie and Christopher Hanlon.
So, after a layer or two on the “bin” piece, it was time to say goodbye. Just wasn't working, especially with the background. So working a new image on top and starting a new portrait from scratch on a nice, clean canvas.
Studio time eventually… come the weekend I will probably try and figure out a way to block out the planes so that I can paint the red container background in one motion. Right now its all a little scrappy and stop/start.
07/05/21
Belfast bound. When walking around the town I hear ARRAY have been nominated for the Turner Prize! Amazing news and thoroughly well deserved! This feels like it could be a huge boost to Belfast / NI art community going forward.
… permit the accident and then aim to control it afterwards.
Concept of space - innovation of contemporary painting regardless of abstract or figurative work.
09/05/21
Initially didn’t feel in form for studio today but it really does pay off to just do it and go in regardless.
Masked planes and now I’m fairly content with the more solid / rusted container in the background.
10/05/21
Sketchbook work.
12/05/21
The over-thinking / perfectionist side is in overdrive.
Perhaps it’s the large scale that is showing up it’s flaws. Embrace the flaws? Easier said than done - however I do seem to appreciate other artist’s little oddities in their work that could be seen as inaccurate. One person’s poor areas are another person’s highlights I guess.
There’s a lot to be said for confidence in the work and/or the process. Here’s to letting go.
13/05/21
Finally bit the bullet in some respects. “T.H.T.H” sold!
14/05/21
Memory is so imperfect.
15/05/21
A lot of doodles and not much substance.
Joan of Arc will be the elephant in the room today.
Figurative -> Genre
Abstract -> Colour / Editing
Perfectionism is stifling “History Repeating” It’s getting there but extremely slow and frustrating. Straddling between realistic and looser motifs. In two minds when in the thick of it all.
16/05/21
17/05/21
OFFSITE from Catalyst Arts. Peer Support / crit group was excellent and definitely well worth expanding on.
Patterns of People.
The act of Keening / Post-memory.
18/05/21
Paint the fence.
19/05/21
That ‘I want to be on my own’ kind of feeling.
“H.R.” - truly, these planes are the bane of my life at the minute. Whatever the case, regardless of how they are (in my eyes) I’ll want to push on and be done with this canvas by the weekend….
Cart and standing figures worked on today. Trying to strike a balance between the light tones of the ground, the bodies and the cart.
22/05/21
25/05/21
Work and yard work.
26/05/21
“History Repeating” finished!
28/05/21
Saltz v Scully.
Started putting paint down on one of the smaller pieces and just decided to call it. Whether the smaller works are tripping me up on where to go next or they’re just not exciting me enough to push on. I’m not sure.
30/05/21
When asked if I would be willing to help Ciara McMullan, an architecture student with a project, I was happy to fill out a questionnaire and make some small works on canvas and glass to include in a study model of a studio / exhibition space. I was blown away to see the final results of the project. Some fantastic ideas.
31/05/21
Late night sketching to finish off the month. The past few weeks has seen an unusually singular focus / pandering to one specific canvas. Typically I jump from one work to another with usually three on the go at once. I always thought this helped keep the head and the eyes fresh. I wonder if this may explain May.
Slight sense of fatigue creeping in. At least there are avenues to explore in terms of going about fixing it.